tiziaN is ready to start a new CSGO chapter after break from action: \u201cI feel very confident\u201d Stefan Petrescu\/PGLTizian \u2018tiziaN\u2019 Feldbusch spoke with Dexerto about his personal struggles during the final stages of his BIG journey and his future goals as he looks to continue his CS:GO career abroad. When tiziaN heard the news that he was getting benched by BIG, he took it in stride. If anything, he was surprised that it didn\u2019t happen sooner. tiziaN had felt his individual level drop, and elements of burnout had started impacting his energy. The criticism he had received from the community after a rough patch of form, while not undeserved, had only made things harder. \u201cI couldn\u2019t give 100 percent,\u201d he tells Dexerto. \u201cEven if I tried, it wouldn\u2019t be the 100 percent I would [normally] give. I couldn\u2019t get over the fact that I was playing really badly.\u201d Initially, tiziaN was dead-set on not competing again. For months he didn\u2019t touch CS:GO, instead using his time on the bench to relax, travel with his girlfriend and \u201cget a little bit more into cultural things\u201d. He was due to transition to another role within the BIG organization at some point, but that plan didn\u2019t work out in the end due to \u201cdifferent perspectives\u201d about what he would do. At the same time, he started feeling the urge to compete again, like an itch that needed to be scratched. He got a new computer at the end of January and since then, his days have been spent grinding to get back to where he was during his better days. \u201cI\u2019m feeling a lot better after my break and I\u2019ve got really hungry,\u201d he says. \u201cI have also started streaming, which is something that I never imagined myself doing. I\u2019m not an introvert but I never really liked to be in the limelight. But that has grown on me.\u201d After weeks of a daily schedule that included aim practice, pugs and demo reviews to get his skills back, he announced on March 5 his intention to compete again. \u201cI am buzzing about what the future holds,\u201d he wrote on Twitter. Getting out of his comfort zone After playing on German teams for most of his career, tiziaN has his sights set on joining an international project. \u201cI don\u2019t see any future in German teams,\u201d he says, before correcting himself. \u201cExcept for BIG, obviously.\u201d It has been three years since he last played on a team that communicated in English. (For over a year, BIG had British AWPer Owen \u2018smooya\u2019 Butterfield on the roster). During the early days of CS:GO, he was also part of an international mousesports lineup that included current Heroic in-game leader Casper \u2018cadiaN\u2019 M\u00f8ller. In announcing his return to activity, tiziaN said that he is open to being an in-game leader for the first time in his career. It is a side of the game that he was already exploring during his time with BIG and that has been a key focus for him since he resumed playing. \u201cWith BIG I was kind of the second caller, but I couldn\u2019t really do it on a consistent basis because of the things impacting me outside of the game,\u201d he explains. \u201cI was trying to do it but I wasn\u2019t really feeling confident because I wasn\u2019t confident in myself. This is something I have been working on and it\u2019s why I feel confident about becoming an IGL.\u201d Becoming an IGL, perhaps the most ungrateful role in CS:GO, is, like the decision to start streaming on a regular basis, part of tiziaN\u2019s plan to challenge himself and get out of his comfort zone. And given the mentors he has had in his career and the experience he has accumulated, he\u2019s certain that he can thrive in the role. \u201cI will see, with time, how I will grow into the role,\u201d he says. \u201cI have a lot of experience. I mean, I have been playing CS professionally for ten years. I have played under the best IGLs in the game, and I have had the best coaches. In my opinion, I can do it. \u201cI\u2019m mentally very strong right now and I feel very confident. I will leave no stone unturned.\u201d tiziaN says he was buoyed by the warm welcome from his old teammates and other professional players after he announced his return to competition. \u201cThe general response has been very nice and people are stoked to see me play again,\u201d he says. \u201cThat also gave me a lot of hope and confidence.\u201d As tiziaN prepares to embark on a new challenge, he knows that an important chapter of his career will inevitably close. He spent over four years playing at the highest level with BIG, challenging for top honors and eventually reaching the No.1 spot in the world rankings. \u201cIt was the time of my life,\u201d he admits. \u201cIt\u2019s like they say: You don\u2019t know how good you have it until it\u2019s gone. After I stepped down, I was traveling, I was doing stuff, but I missed competing and I missed my teammates. After five years of living together and doing stuff together, we were literally a family. \u201cI was living in Berlin together with tabseN and everything. I\u2019m sad that I\u2019m not playing there anymore, but it\u2019s also time to move on and find something else for me. Hopefully, it\u2019s going to work out.\u201d tiziaN knows that some in the Counter-Strike scene may view his return with suspicion. Six months is a long time in esports, after all, and not many players come back from such a break looking sharp. But he is not worried about working his way back to the top and proving his doubters wrong. \u201cMechanically, I\u2019m maybe even better than what I was before because I\u2019ve been doing a lot of aim practice and I\u2019ve been pugging a lot,\u201d he says. \u201cI didn\u2019t pug at all when I was with BIG. After practice, I would go to the gym and then just chill because I didn\u2019t have the energy after a long practice day to pug. But now I\u2019ve got the endurance again to play a lot. \u201cI\u2019m still very confident,\u201d he adds. \u201cI\u2019ve been playing this game since I was six. I\u2019m 26 now. I basically grew up with the game. For me, it\u2019s like riding a bike. The only thing I\u2019m missing a bit is the meta and what teams are playing, but I\u2019m catching up on that now. The mechanical things are not that hard to catch up on. It\u2019s about playing and getting into the situations again, you know?\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
tiziaN is ready to start a new CSGO chapter after break from action: \u201cI feel very confident\u201d Stefan Petrescu\/PGLTizian \u2018tiziaN\u2019 Feldbusch spoke with Dexerto about his personal struggles during the final stages of his BIG journey and his future goals as he looks to continue his CS:GO career abroad. When tiziaN heard the news that […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-39229","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39229","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=39229"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/39229\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=39229"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=39229"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=39229"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}