Behzinga opens up about suicide attempt and what stopped him YouTube: Behzinga[jwplayer mgzBNoPb]Popular UK YouTuber and Sidemen member Ethan \u2018Behzinga\u2019 Payne has opened up on one of the darkest times of his life, revealing a secret suicide attempt several years ago \u2013 and why he didn\u2019t go ahead with it. As part of the Sidemen, Behzinga is often seen as lighthearted and fun-loving, and this is a side of him that many fans will be completely unaware of and seem truly out of character. In recent months, he has been documenting his incredible weight loss journey and even worked on the commentary desk for Sky Sports during the KSI vs Logan Paul YouTube boxing event. Obviously, though, as with anyone else, Payne\u2019s life and career hasn\u2019t all been fun and games, as he spoke about during a YouTube video uploaded on July 1. During the video, Behzinga took questions from fans that were, for the most part, funny and just a bit awkward, but one question, in particular, spurred Ethan to speak on troubles he has faced. The question asked was a simple one: \u201cWhat\u2019s the hardest time you\u2019ve had to go through?\u201d Not many expected the candid honesty that came in the response, though. \u201cI would say I\u2019ve struggled with my battles with depression,\u201d he said, seemingly uncomfortable about broaching the subject. \u201cI\u2019ve never been to the doctors about it, but I would say, and people around me would probably say \u2018yes, you\u2019ve been awfully depressed at times.\u201d He continued: \u201cIn those times, I have done some very stupid things\u2026 I got in my car, p**sed as a fart (British slang for very drunk). I got in that car with the intention of not getting back out of it.\u201d Timestamp 9:52 He went on to say that not only did he put himself in danger, but he put other people in danger too, calling it \u201cone of the most stupid things I\u2019ve ever done in my life\u201d and that it was \u201cvery selfish.\u201d He then confessed that he had a moment of realization while on his \u201crampage,\u201d and simply asked himself what he was doing, imagining how everybody who cared about him would react if he did do that. It got increasingly emotional as the story went on, with Payne clearly still feeling upset about the ordeal \u2013 but, fortunately, he clearly realizes the error of his ways and is thriving today, with both himself and the Sidemen bigger and more successful than they ever have been. If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, or know anyone that is, and you would like to talk to someone, please reach out and call the Suicide Prevention Helpline 1-800-273-8255 (USA) or the Samaritans 116-123 (UK).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Behzinga opens up about suicide attempt and what stopped him YouTube: Behzinga[jwplayer mgzBNoPb]Popular UK YouTuber and Sidemen member Ethan \u2018Behzinga\u2019 Payne has opened up on one of the darkest times of his life, revealing a secret suicide attempt several years ago \u2013 and why he didn\u2019t go ahead with it. As part of the Sidemen, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-44889","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44889","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=44889"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44889\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=44889"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=44889"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=44889"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}