Ex-Vlog Squad member says working with David Dobrik made him feel \u201cworthless\u201d Instagram: BigNik\/David DorbikYouTuber and former Vlog Squad member Nik \u2018BigNik\u2019 Keswani has opened up on his time working with David Dobrik, explaining how the videos and atmosphere drove him to depression. David Dobrik\u2019s Vlog Squad is made up of a rotating cast of characters, mainly YouTubers, who he has collaborated with for a few years \u2013 even stretching back to Vine in some cases. With any group, there is turnover as people leave and new creators join. Though, in recent weeks, there has been plenty of \u2018tea\u2019 spilled, with some former members lifting the lid on the atmosphere around the vlogs. BigNik, who made his name on Vine back in the day, left the Vlog Squad, and revealed that the constant mocking of him drove him into depression and to reconsider what he was doing. The former Vlog Squad member joined H3H3\u2019s After Dark Podcast #22 to talk about the YouTube collective, with H3H3 asking if he ever felt the same way as Trisha Paytas, who admitted that the videos gave her suicidal thoughts. Read More: How does David Dobrik make money? – \u201cFor a long time, I felt worthless being in those videos. I was like, dude, why am I even like here? What\u2019s the point in my existence because I was just treated like this punching bag,\u201d Nik said. \u201cEveryones just joking about me, mocking me, and then the fans in public are doing the same. \u201cI had a good long look in the mirror and I was like wow, I\u2019m really depressed. I realized right there that followers, fame, money, none of this stuff is worth it if I\u2019m getting to the point where I don\u2019t even want to live.\u201d Timestamp of 1:13:50 While Big Nik admits it was a negative time for himself, he\u2019s used that time to change around and put a positive spin on things, using it as a growing experience. \u201cHonestly, I\u2019m kind of glad I went through that because it kind of broke the way I viewed success,\u201d he continued. The former Vlog Squad member explained that he equated success with money, followers, fame but realized, even though he had that stuff, he was \u201cmore depressed than ever\u201d but that broke the myth of fame to him, in turn helping him become more mature. He also noted that he\u2019s spoken to Dobrik about his experiences and the two are on a good footing, but it was the constant sniping and piling on from other members that didn\u2019t help his cause.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ex-Vlog Squad member says working with David Dobrik made him feel \u201cworthless\u201d Instagram: BigNik\/David DorbikYouTuber and former Vlog Squad member Nik \u2018BigNik\u2019 Keswani has opened up on his time working with David Dobrik, explaining how the videos and atmosphere drove him to depression. David Dobrik\u2019s Vlog Squad is made up of a rotating cast of […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48233","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48233","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=48233"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48233\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=48233"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=48233"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dejan.au\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=48233"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}